recently many occasion .. last sat i went over to for steamboat.. everytime when we have steamboat some good things will bound to happen hahaa.. i guess we should hv more steamboat haha... then stay to help play maple hahah...

then went to buy koi bubble tea which surprise and didnt get to wait for it for collection..
overall is nice had fun feel good that day..

sunday i went over to JB by car and went to shopped and eat hahaha.. spend abt 4 hrs or so there in JB ... i brought shower cream, facial cream , bedsheet , tibits , n dragon fruits... we had cereal prawn , fried pork trotters, fan shu leaves wif sambal, hotplate tofu egg , n fried pork and pig stomach soup n rice...

then when abt to go home we had sugarcane drink + fried oyster to share.. although was very hot but i enjoy with the family... feels great ....

at nite i make salad wif boil chicken , hotdog, eggs , breakfast ham , tuna and salad sauce ...
last nite tummy abit pain and i didnt get to sleep well last nite... hahaha

i gg for my appointment now so later then blog ...

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Karen| 9:40 AM
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many things running thru my mind.. lots of decisions to make..
to move on and leave the hurt behind and prove that he is wrong?
if he to love me is so hard and difficult he should let me go instead..

i always tot love was to accept all shortcoming of its good and bad..
changing is always for the better and not for conditions..

when i can accepts all his shortcomings why he cant?
does it mean that he dun truly loves me?

i hope to make a decision soon as not liking the feeling i m having each day.

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Karen| 10:31 AM
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I guess it really gone forever.

I guess to pursue the path of being together.. we must be willing and courageous to avoid anything that lead us away or stop us from coming closer to each other.

The journey of life is going to be difficult but if both puts in efforts it will not never be apart.

All these months what am i doing am i just leaving in dreams?
I'll be going to staying in Nunnery for a few days and to have a calm mind.

I having too much which i could not take it. Because i given so much but to find out the truth it too hurting to bear.

i love him so much but he never feels the same is better to break off isn't it?

I adjure you to remember the days of pure love between us.
I adjure you to remember the genuine openness, sincerity, and love talks between us.

Is leaving the solution after all we have been through?
it isn't the solution but is swift destruction forever?

But i guess i have done what i had and could for this relationship which i could not do any more from now ... i gave my all but end up hurting..

So from now i guess i'll close my doors and never so easy to open up again

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Karen| 9:43 AM
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Is This Love ?

You say that you love me, but it can't be true.
I wouldn't play along if I wasn't so devoted to you.
When I'm not picture perfect you won't even touch me
Is that supposed to show me how much you care?
Each day I try a different way to keep you wanting me,
but from your hurtful words it must be oblivious to see.
There must be something in my way that's preventing my beauty to show.
Maybe it's you blocking the truth, not allowing me to grow.
If we're so in love, why don't I feel safe?
Will you always be my shield from the storm?
Giving me guidance through dark lonely nights,
will it be you forever keeping me warm?
Even though I love you, nothing should stand in my way.
See, I have this need to shine, but you're breaking me down day by day.
Do you need me in your life? Do you need me to survive?
Or am I just tiding you over until a prettier one walks by?
It seems I already have these answers....
All the tears over you I've shed, put them behind
says a voice in my head. But it's not that easy for me to do,
because for some reason I can never stop loving you

Last nite was a worse day i ever had since then.. what shd i go or do now?
i guess i am never gonna be good enuff for anyone if not he shd hv already neo my heart by now..

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Karen| 2:44 PM
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Today is a rainy day.. suitable for sleeping at home but yet i am working..
these few days been weird for me and hard on my tummy. i feel so much pain and yet i cant do anything about it..

i wondering what else can i do to not pin so much hope on a relationship?
i feel bad n sad when i dun get to talk to him or meet him.. its like i understand love need its own space but i just feel lonely.

It like i pin so much on this and turn out otherwise.. i was so looking forward to meeting up but he is not well so cancelled it. But on the other hand he got a job i am so happy for him.. Glad he found a job.

These few days every night i go home was just to face the wall and on maple. it seems like so dead at home.. no one at home and left me alone and when i m in pain i feel sooo bad.. no one to talk to no one to comfort me..

i will blog next time ba..

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Karen| 4:03 PM
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