i m back again today lots of things going on in my mind.

about work , life , personal stuffs..
i tot if there is a prob we need to find a solution?
but i keep running away from it...

i feel i m losing myself and i can't seems to understand anymore..

i hate the feeling of wat i m feeling today.it makes me feel sad, worried , confused and most of all hurt.

i always has dream or goals in whatever i do. but lately i seem to lost it..
i m not what i used to be anymore.

i tink this call for a i need a break need to slow things down...
hell knows what i shd do..

maybe i expecting alot or he not showing me enuff? or somethng with the rs ?
hope i can find a solution to this..

i post another time ba...

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Karen| 6:15 PM
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Haha.. it has been a long time since i updated the blog..

These few months many things happen.. i been in and out of the hospital pretty bad..
Life with him is always full of ups n down... now coming that family concerns.
I always thought loving a person gives courage.. but someone courage & trust need to be earn.

How can to let a person accept you? The way you are ?
Loving a person isn't accepting all their good & bad and almost everything ?

I tried loving and trusting a person but somehow i do not know if that person feel the same for me?

Recently i have been pretty happy gone out alot also have lots of new memories..
Life is make up of mermories?

I went zoo with zhenjie ( a cute and rascal ) , sit on horse carriage ( something like olden times cinderalla except that not a shelter )
Went to eat dine in zoo. Was pretty hot but was fun..

Went to watch movie alot too which i do not use to do so often..

I have been out alot lately.. maybe changing my lifestyles...
Tummy has been pretty painful lately..

Last month i lost something very important to me which till now i still long and tink abt it..
It just seem it happen yestersday..

I was hoping and wanting a life filled with happiness and free of quarrels..

Yestersday Uncle was asking me to go to Germany for business work which i will need to be away from Apr - End Jun..
I do not know if i should go or not? I feel like going coz maybe i wanna prove something. If i leave will he stray away ?
Will he forgets about me? Or will he faithfully wait for my return?

I really do not know i also hope to hear the truth from his heart. Things bothering me mainly are his family i guess.

I tink will update again ba....

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Karen| 4:38 PM
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