累了 交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 你心像往常还有热
越美丽越更勇敢的
我还能展示什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你

如果我变成回忆 最怕我单独终极
顽固的烂在空气 不整理行李 每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你总哭 承受失去
这样不公平 请你整理 把我忘记

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Karen| 11:04 AM
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last night i slept about 11pm.. i was feeling too well.. i been bleeding alot last night... i woke up many times in the night...

recently i been feeling so restless.. keep feeling like i am doing to die like that..
the pain is getting worse these two days...

i played deco only awhile last nite.. manage to change job and get lvl up abit.. maybe later after work might play or might not played..

i also dunno wat to say recently too.. i feel my brain gone for overhual.. just seems to be dead .. haha...

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Karen| 10:48 AM
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I am back.. its been a long time since i last blog..
i recently been so bz with many things..
with lots of work and lots of games =p

work is always stacking n stacking and it never seems to be gone..
it is always there hahahaha... and in game i playing both rain and mill
rain is already 79 and mil sniper is 65 =p

health has been still alright .. nothing big happens...

recently seldom been toking to him as like nothing much to chat about..
stop going for treatment as well .. and he seems sad about.. maybe he is just worry i guess.

wondering if he worry that i could not meet up to his expectations? or its me ownself worrying abt myself...

i am feeling so sleepy today .... keep yawn and yawnnnnn

hahahaa.. i think i'll blog again later ba or few days later =x

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Karen| 12:00 PM
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It been soo long since i blog lols..

Recently been too tired and tied down with work.
Therefore alot been going on.

Last week was a crazy week for me...
Many things happen.. He make me sad make me happy.

But now things are much better..

Been playing deco too but getting bored each day..
I am now currently lvl 57 haha.. maybe i wanna start a new char instead =x

Hmm.. nothing really has change except he been nicer now..
I hope this will not be just temporary however we chat every night and i am very happy.

Today nose has been dripping non-stop and i hate it too.. haha
I feeling sleepy now.. tired also haha

I think i blog another day ba....

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Karen| 11:39 AM
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Someone let me hear this song.
Its nice i think. Wan Mei Bing Bu Mei wo men duo xu wei.. Wan mei bing bu mei dan ni ai le shui wo de wan mei ye zhi shi bu wan mei..

I level 49 already.. didnt really level but roam around with my horse in map..
and go see ppl level. starting to feel bored coz everyday been solo - ing in game..

你常常說 我很完美
沒人能取代 我給的一切
我就以為 我努力更完美
我們 就會永遠

完美並不美 我們多虛偽
你讓我的好 變成一種罪
完美並不美 當你愛了誰
我的完美也只是 不完美

後來你說 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身邊
你不是我 你怎麼能體會
你有 多麼珍貴

完美並不美 我們多虛偽
你讓我的好 變成一種罪
完美並不美 當你愛了誰
我的完美也只是 不完美

完美並不美 我們多虛偽
你讓我的好 變成一種罪
完美並不美 當你愛了誰
我的完美成了罪

完美並不美 我們多虛偽
你讓我的好 變成一種罪
完美並不美 當你愛了誰
我的完美也只是 不完美

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Karen| 12:29 AM
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today something most embrassing thing happen to me sia..
i today knock into a glass door.. its sound like PONG not very loud but embrassing..

then last nite he ask me very funnie questions and tell me about 2010 thingy.
i dunno wat to react to it also.. so i just keep very quiet..

Seems things are about to change like that.. feeling worried and afraid..

then now at work feeling tired... today no treatment as my aunty is here for visit...
then i asking uncle jeff to play he say will think about it...

hope he can play lor... me already lvl 48 today liao.....

still a long long way to go... hahahahaa...

i feeling down today... hope things will be better soon....

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Karen| 12:50 PM
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deco been on for like 4 days so far.. and i am at lvl 47 hahaa.. still slow though..
didi and the rest already lvl till about 60 soon.

recently didnt really play audition.
work been alot too T.T ....

i been feeling kinda restless , tired lately... maybe lack for sleep haha..
now i at office i still feel like falling to sleep. its not good sign...
as my brains seems to shut down like that....

Dunno if dar eaten yet.. last nite he was saying dunno wat online bf n gf thingy.
it makes me wonder about us ...

I had beef for lunch today... and drank green tea ( hot )....
with 1 pc garlic bread. the garlic bread is nice....

he ask me if i wnana go aussie for winter.. i dun feel like going.
becoz i am afraid...

my fren told me if i avoid him when he still so nice to me..
she said i might be i am afraid that i might fall for him.
But i said i know him for a long long time.. how to fall for him nehs...

i also dunno....i just know that i am totally tired....

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Karen| 2:41 PM
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