hmm finally deco going to be open soooo happy..
i am going to be promi.. but our team lack of HA also...
haha.. but nvm ba tonite i wanna chiong lvl till lvl 30 since tomorrow i am not working...

havent register also coz dunno hw to hahaha.
today nothing much happens

last nite got hard time sleeping.. keep tossing and turning..
this morning got nose bleeding for abt 10 mins ba..
also feeling faint today...

now in office waiting for 11 then go out for treatment then back office
i wanna go home on the dot today as i want to faster go deco haha..

i blog again later ba.. Uncle jeff deco out le if u read my blog pls go dl ya.. we NID u xD

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Karen| 9:42 AM
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today..i went home slightly early coz i wanan audi.. then i went in audi for awhile then i log out le. i played like less then 10 songs..

he got sore eyes today so cant play games le.
is it because he know me he become more sick? am i bringing him bad luck nehs?

today treatment slightly painful but nothing much....
today i go play audi so bored .. i played awhile only then never play le..

i guess now he must be sleeping le ba.......
i know i shd be more understanding towards him but i cant help but feel sad...
sometimes i wondering will we surive this relationship neh?

i do not know wat to do now also... i dunno wat i should say or wat i shouldnt say
dunno wat to blog also..
brains seems to be offline...

i think i dun write le..

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Karen| 9:34 PM
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Ytd has been vv tired.. It seems i become a maid in office...
I was moving to new office and then my boss said could vacum the floor to dino then dino just sit there like a tua pek gong like that....
then i vacum the floor she still sit like a rock sia...

i soooo pissed off.. then i was packing and doing nothing except clearing the email.....
then chat with dar awhile.. then went to cold storage to buy lots of fish and meat , ham n bread and cheese and spend abt 94 dollar >< sooooooo much

haha.. then took taxi home lor...
then audi awhile and i got kick out from fam.. i vv sad lor coz didn't expect that ma... then the fam ldr said i am sorry to kick u ... i dunno y like that lo sooo sad...

i today just finished cooking fish soup and preparing to go bathe then go treatment liao hahahaa

i think i will blog not everyday ba coz dunno wat to type too lols

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Karen| 8:11 AM
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last nite was playing audi for few hours then my fam ldr and his gf got quarrel..
but its over fam things. but i jus dun understand y the gal cannot try give in nehs?

It makes me think that 2 person in love isn't it both should learn to give and take?
And its not so lucky that everyone can find their true love..
Some ppl longs for love yet cant find and they can find yet do not want to treasure ?

Sometimes i really wondering what is love nehs..

Last nite i keep having nose block.. feel like cutting it off... hahaha

now at work doing nothing lor.. so boring now... hahaha

hope later can play game

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Karen| 11:41 AM
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I think it been sometimes seems i updated my blog..

I been so so busy with work and so tied down with the work i am doing..

Treatment yestersday was very pain.. The person dunno how to poke anyhow poke till i soooooo pain...
Nose also been blocked T.T my whole body aches too..

I am waiting for the deco online to faster come out hahaha..
Last night i was playing audition just for awhile though...

Work enviroment has not been too good recently.. i got upset with someone and was kinda of disappointed to know that.
Its like i been so nice to her and yet she trying to kick me off . I did my work and i know my work well.
I still cannot get over this issue .. Everyday when i comes to work i keep thinking about it..
I hope i can forget this soon... it makes me vvvv unhappy..

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Karen| 11:21 AM
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Today i didn't go church T.T was not feeling too well.
I am having fever i guess i took too much durians too heaty ...

I been sleeping alot recently too.... and its not good hahaa...
every night i got problem sleeping .... LOLS...

Recently i feel like so easy torn down.. i seems something is not right like that...
i had pancakes with honey for bfast .. i love the pancakes with bananas soooooo nice...

lunch i took fish soup...
dinner they cooking porridge with dried scallop and chicken..

i have not been writing alot.. seems like i am out of topics ....

today played awhile audi with patrick then stopped then msn awhile...
waiting for deco online till now still not opened.. wait till neck going to break =p
hahaa...

hope uncle jeff also play then gd liao hahhaha then i can get free PLVL xD
haha..

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Karen| 6:53 PM
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today morning went to hospital then go treatment...
then slept haha..
today i played audi awhile only....
then chat wif dar dar then talk abnout alot of things ....

today not too well vomit things i eat ...
i went for blood count again...
it didnt seems to get better...

today i was feeling abit down in the morning after that i feel better......

didnt really msg dar alot... just abit today...

sometimes i do not know what i really thinking about.....
sometimes i feel so strong sometimes i feel so weak..
i need some attitude adjustment...

my blog seems more n more short and do not have much to post..
as my life is so routine nothing much has happen...
no neew topics to start on...

i am at times feeling tired... sometimes i feel hard to breathe with everyone to follow where i go...

i think i blog tml if i got anything....

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Karen| 12:42 AM
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I saw this on Jeff's blog and i found it very meaningful....

This video promotes fairness in all relationships and clearly is not limited to only one limited form of relationship. Illustrate the basic tenet that LOVE can not be controlled by any limited human agenda. Our greatest gift of love has no limits or moral borders.

I think its very nice. Do you think this way too?

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Karen| 12:25 AM
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omg i slept so so so long... i woke up at 10 plus i think then fall back to sleep again till late afternoon ... sound so pig ><

Then go do treatment then go parkway to find some books but the author no longer making new books yet..

Then reach home in evening... then dar msg me le..
Tonite dinner got stired fried beef wif onion , broccoli wif scallops , steam cod fish , yang sheng tonic soup and of coz rice and my apple juice...

then i go play audi till abt 10 plus and i join a fam -truelove~ haha..

i also dunno do wat now.. so so bored.. i miss him..

hmm tml den blog ba

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Karen| 12:10 AM
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This morning went to hospital to do check up and my blood count is now 3/12 still not so good.
Did some blood samples too .

Then went home rested till about 1315hrs then was going out.
Then papa wanna follow us then no choice go out together till about 3pm .
He was trying to shake off my papa then he slip out of mouth that i am going to temple.
papa was so so so mad with me.... i am not allowed to go u neo blah blah blah...

I also was very upset coz i didn't go as i promise to go now its like i broke my promise
Y i so useless like that...
then msg him told him can't go can sense he is not happy also... somemore today he super stress.. haisssssss

T.T

Not a good day today.....

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Karen| 4:22 PM
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hmm today nothing much happen also.. i fa mou at home..

morning got go out to immigration to do ic .
then go home and starts to rot
dar woke up in the afternoon then msg me..

then evening nothing to do so play audi .. play awhile also sian le
then go to deco forum to post some ss and reply some post in the forum.

then at nite play audi again for awhile .. tonight cannot call him... ><

hmm tml needs to go hospital again.. so will be back later in the afternoon....

i also dunno wat to do now.. maybe i should try to sleep ba...

tml den blog ba..

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Karen| 11:42 PM
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hmmm today was on msn chatting with dou , didi , uncle sky , uncle jeff , poke about the new game deco..



seems like we had alot of promi and we are lack of HA & Priest. hahaa

i also dig out alot of past deco ss later will help them post on forum.



Then in afternoon dar go sleep ....



In the evening play audi awhile seems laggy T.T then dar wake up le then msg me le haha



Today no major event..

haha so nothing much to write ><

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Karen| 9:20 PM
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last night didn't play audition.. but instead been chatting with him.
then talk awhile then not feeling too well coz vomitted and nose bleeding.

Then after that i went to afk then sit on the bed .. dunno hw come sit there can sleep also..
i think i must be too tired haha.. then i doze off then slept till this morning at 8 i woke up...

Then i saw his msn he put I love you haha so so so niceee
haha..

i am hungry now so later then blog ba..

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Karen| 9:47 AM
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么是真的
你比谁都清晰
是因为声音泄漏了天机
忍不住好奇窥探你的心底
由不得渐渐爱上你
我该怎么爱你
不愿你摸索而去
你却把委屈隐藏的不留点痕迹
我该怎么爱你
我沉默且小心翼翼
只希望你能倾听感觉我温柔又不掩饰的心

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Karen| 8:17 PM
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Karen| 4:46 PM
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I woke up at 0700hrs so so tired haha.. i am preparing to go my cousin's place
to cook chicken curry and fried beehoon.

I going to redhill market to get those items and also getting breakfast for them...
HAHA i become a maid >< hahaha..

I last nite has a very nice dream. I dreamt of him...
And the moment i woke up i miss him already... hahah..

hope he had a good time last nite too and also when wake up will msg me hahah...

I about to go le waiting for the driver to send me there hahaa =p

I later then blog ba..

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Karen| 8:34 AM
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today i was playing audi till very late manage to form a team with mei xTiArA.

today he was also very sweet today ask me and all.
i feel so so so xin fu..
because of him my life is so complete....

then we chatted on the phone and time with him always passes so so so fast...
and also looking forward for it everyday if will be this ....

i looking forward to 2010 also... always looking forward for this day....
I will jiayou always...

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Karen| 2:10 AM
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Hmm last night he ask me do i know who is carol and andrew.
I keep think is it someone i forgotten? Or he just trying to be funnie?
He keep asking me if i know fairy , kelvin of coz i rem la they are my buddies le..

Then i keep trying to recall who is carol and andrew. Are they couple ma?

This morning woke up early then gone to church today readings is
'It was our infirmities that He bore, our sufferings that He endured.' Is 53:4
Readings 1: Isaiah 52:1353:12 ; 2: Hebrews 4:14-16; 5:7-9 ; 3: Psalm 31 ; 4: John 18:119:42

Today is good friday which god was dying for us and our sins.

He still sleeping i think .. must be vvvvv tired haha..

i later then blog ba...

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Karen| 11:48 AM
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Today i went for a movie called Fast & Furious 4.

I love that Vin Diesel & Paul Walker.
I love that car and the speed. haha..
SO SO COOL.

I ate hotdogs with mustard and tomato sauce.
I also brought alot of letter pads and i wanna write letters to him / godfather ..

I reach home about 10 plus. Then i went to play audition for awhile.
I help play his char to earn more dens now his dens more then me Rawrrr..

I waiting for him msn me..

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Karen| 11:57 PM
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Its been a long long time since i blog.
Recently something happen and i been sleeping for a few days.

But now everythings seems ok le.
My blood count is still so weak 2/12 which is very low.
Doc gave me iron pills and i ask doc if eat iron pills will i be magnetic haha..
I think i m being stupid. haha

I was staying in the deluxe suite room anyway hospital is not suitable for me..
Home is the best. Got pc , my own bed i miss my own bed soooooo much...

Dar also recently becoming more n more sweet and concern..
I also hope i will recover soon.

I also dunno wat to blog today but i am happy coz dar is with me ...
Dar always here to support n encourage me i so xinfu..

Maybe tomorrow then blog ba.. i wanan go audition awhile =x hahaa

i long time no audi le..

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Karen| 1:36 PM
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This is a very nice meaningful song.

在这天这一分钟遇你
望向街中的感觉很美
下一秒未准备
未适应兜兜转转像戏
越过空间差一些运气
下意识的心想碰到你
剩低我在这地
离别终捉到珍惜道理
七天空间交错似千次远离
一天呼吸使我在回味那空气
七天终必希冀记忆再储起
心中一生的美是曾遇你

在你身边匆匆的掠过
未有开口担心会出错
未敢爱再等待
重迭的空间终双觅爱

花一生的福气为重遇你

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Karen| 2:43 PM
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I m back again to blog..

Hmm he home le after cycle for so many hours..

But the things is i still can't sleep.
My hands also hurts. My hands still got blue black from the injection and drawing of the blood.

I was feeling abit down today. i feel like crying..

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Karen| 5:33 AM
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I still can't sleep. T.T
Maybe got alot of things on my mind.. Maybe is been sleeping so long just now..
If i know i shouldn't have slept in the afternoon...

I listening to mp3 and found this song call 爱来的刚刚好
总是和你擦肩而过
回头看着你走我说服自己
你从来都不属於我
也在心里偷偷想过拥有你陪伴的生活
对我会是多麽奢侈的梦
你完美得太过火有太多的选择
我还能付出什麽除了爱你
我一无所有
爱来的刚刚好慢一步我就走掉
或许上帝听见心中的祈祷带我从孤单里逃跑
因为爱

我在等你说你也爱我你是我存在的理由

Another song is 坏人
容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

Do not know if he back yet or not. Maybe still out there.. But dun dare msg him or call him ..
Hope he faster msg me =x

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Karen| 3:28 AM
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I just woke up.

I had a bad dream while sleeping in the afternoon.
I dream i saw myself die. And my coffin is make of Winnie The Pooh.
I saw alot of people paying me a visit. I also saw alot of people crying.

It seems so real coz when i tried to hold them my hand just pass through them.
Its seems so creepy...

I had pork liver soup with rice for dinner + organic apple .
I am still having constipation ..

He is out at chalet i hope he will have a lot of fun there..

I go listen song le.. tomorrow then blog ba..

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Karen| 10:12 PM
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Finally today discharge from hospital. Been staying for 4 days..
Doc said my asthma is bad and do have anamia so need to take more red meat like beef , liver , pork , spinach.

When i discharge this afternoon the medicines was like a HUGH bag for 2 months.
And the medicine comes in different sizes and different colours. Sound like M&M xD

I got orange , yellow , black , red , white medicines..
I got cough syrups and also constipation syrups.

Last night i keep tossing around could not sleep well. And when nurse come take my pulse and oxygen the blood has very little oxygen its like 64 / 100 which the alarm went up so put on the oxygen tube for the night which make me feel so uncomfortable to sleep.

Overall i been sleeping alot during my stay in the hospital. I also did alot of thinking too.
And i got this song which quite sad though when i listen this song i got sad feelings.

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋但
我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了
爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能睡
我不能够不能够不爱了

I think i will blog later again.

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Karen| 2:40 PM
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Today manage to sit up and can use the laptop..

I been staying here in Tan Tock Seng Hospital for the last 3 night here.
I was admitted due to faint and asthma attack. Then they check my blood test and found i am having anemia ( ping xue ) so doctor suggested for me to eat more red meat to improve my blood count.

I also have low oxygen in blood today the lowest it went was below 80. My pressure was also on the low side.

Overall staying here still i hope i could be discharged tomorrow.

Nothing much except doing alot of tests and doing the Nap for asthma.
Food here is not as nice.

I will blog again .....

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Karen| 4:33 PM
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