Finally this is 1st Novemeber and my fav month as this is my BIRTHDAY month haha what makes it better it is Friday.. I can't wait for the gathering with my ex colleagues tomorrow.. I been wondering if someone really loves u will he really willing and make the effort to spend time with you?  Or is it that once a couple together for long they lost the freshness of the relationship and drift away?  There is a saying guy always wanna go for fresher items out there while the woman is always trying to maintain the freshness of the item. I saw this quote when i was watching a chinese movie last weekend.

I will be on leave for November for 3 days to clear my leave. I still got no clue what i should be doing during these period. I also looking forward for Xmas as this is my fav time of the year.. When there is Xmas i feel it a joyous season and it makes me really happy looking at the beautiful streets lights and also the present display. Wrapping up present, buying present for friends and family. So many things i like to do during Xmas.. Especially cooking and gathering with friends and family. This such a warmth feeling.

Hope Xmas come early for me to bring me joy.

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Karen| 1:57 PM
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Today had a feeling to do some blogging. Over these period many things happen. Happy , Unhappy, Sad.
Happy is i got engaged to someone i loved and he proposed. Unhappy is that i m not sure what things has changes it become very insecure for me also.. Sad lost some important person in my life over the months.

If things can remain as simple as it could be i would be very glad and grateful. Many things just bumps into your life to make you stronger and move on. Recently i been pondering a lot looking through all those sweet post and photos of us reminding me of our courtship days.

I also starting to learn that i need to let go if this is against his will. If i said i will not be unhappy it will be lying to myself. After so long , so many things happen i thought we can endure all obstacles. I only now leave to God's hands to show me the path. I will accept whatever it comes.

But i learn during these time many things i learn to control my temper, my sadness but the only things i cant control is my tears. But i learning also to put him in my shoes and i know what he might be going through that is why i finally understand loving a person need a lot of courage , tolerance and unlimited forgiving and giving in.

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Karen| 11:39 AM
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Karen| 3:49 PM
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Yesterday was at his ah ma house celebrating bday.. had lots of nice food coz was having steamboat. Had duck , prawns , fishball , mushroom , fish , vegetable.. so nice the steamboat...

the family was warm and funny too.. all his cousin also quite fun to be with ..
zhenjie still so cute as usual...

but his ahgong i was kinda started by his action so abruptly..
He was in trance and it freak me till my leg is soft.. ever since then i had hard time getting to sleep last night. coz whenever i close my eyes i see that he in trance n slicing his tongue with the blood on his tongue this is total craze for me.. This is the 1st time seeing all these for a weak heart like me.. i really feel hard to digest for it...

but other that the trance thing i enjoyed myself.. his mama give me an angbao for my bday.. hahha
sooooooo happy......

coz today is my bday and i hope all i wish will come true...

i will post more next time ...

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Karen| 10:59 AM
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Last weeks practically i been over his place everyday haha..
Looking forward this coming weekend...

Nothing much happens just keep eating going work tired and sleepy..
I watched the piranha pretty gross but exciting haha..

Been too JB that got a bedsheet and eat nice food...
so looking forward to go JB again haha.. the cereal slippery lobster is nice as well as the oyster egg ..

Nothing much happen around me except occasionally quarrels but we manage to talk it thru...

Office nothing much happens either...

Looking forward for xmas =x i hope this day faster come...

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Karen| 2:59 PM
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Recently been bz hardly been blogging .. not much change lately.. watch da chang jin again.. feel so nice hahah...

Been eating alot haha.. nothing really much been sticking with him quite a alot...
i also been thinking alot lately.. his mum gave me this idea...
being together really need to give in alot .. but he so petty... abit jiu xiao qi ..
wondering will i be able to survive this rs ? we both like belong to two different world of personalities.

his mum is pretty nice.. she cooks nice food n soup.. love her soup the most..
his mum was telling me some history of him and his dad... asking me to be prepared to vomit blood hahaha...

so funnie isn't it... sometimes i wonder does he loves me? in wat way he shows he love me?

later in the noon need to go for convention sooo bored ...

singapore recently been like in haze liddat ... coz of the fire in indonesia that cause it..
it looks so gloomy and grey... feel like so foggy haha..

guess what we are closer to christmas in 2 month and 2 days.. so looking forward.. hope can spend with someone i love ....

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Karen| 10:16 AM
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Today is sat liao.. so looking forward for today as it been a long long time since i went to parkway parade for shopping.. and this time with him also...

ytd we both had a big big quarrel.. sometimes i just dun understand guy.. y guys like to hide and not show ? is this mean that the prob lies on the gal?
i really dunno.. ytd i kinda reach a point of breaking down...

but he apologize and said he learn his mistakes which i had heard it lots lots time before..
i really hope this will be the last time ...

i hope tonite when we both together will have a good time together.. really need to find that closeness we both shared b4..

looking forward for my favourite dinner .. steamboat hhahaa...

will blog again next time...

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Karen| 1:17 PM
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